cashing in on clarity

listenin to: chris rice
workin on: cue ad grids

woke up this sunday mornin-v rested; a feeling i rarely have these days. currently tryin to lock down some cue client admin stuffs-need to grid them to see how much space we actually have. beautifl day outside, but we have fast learnt not to be deceived by this-it is most likely v freezing. am stuck in the unlikely place of feeling like i really can achieve everything i have on my plate at the moment-no doubt the week will begin mundanely again tomorrow- and this feeling will disappear. but for now it's good and a great place to be.

the prospect of going home to visit and do the family rounds is fast disappearing so im not pinning down a date. will take it as it comes. chatted to levs yesterday-yes, the place i once called my only home-still loves racism, if it didnt, it would have disappeared already. and that's the one thing grahamstown has done us down by: the world does not exist like it does here. yes, there are still judgements, racism, prejudice and al those other sickly issues right here in Grahamstown. But the place where i grew up has not become the place which taught me to become blind to skin colour. and going back home, this is painfully obvious, i fit in because of my skin but i do not... because this does not matter to me.

a brute of a lecturer, who has become a favourite of many students here once said to us in a lecture about race, identity and representation: whoever started this notion of judging people on the basis of their skin colour may just as well have said, "you have blue eyes so you are better than that boy with brown eyes". nasty, crazy and completely absurd.