waiting for the aftermath

listenin to: 5fm
workin on: ha draft programme

i am so ready for this week to be over. of course when that does happen, it will only mean that the monster is much closer, but at the same time, the glory of the aftermath will be closer. if anything this experience has clearly shown me what i can and absolutely cannot do, what i'm good at and what i would never want to do even if i could. it has also shown me how different people handle stress and how ugly someone looks when are nasty. and i for one, have truly decided that if i were to choose to be cruel and nasty, my face would surely look that ugly and so i have decided just not to do it. seriously... i encountered someone in the middle of ugly face syndrome which was brought on by simple selfishness and boy did he look nasty! so since then, whenever i experience glimpses of me landing my palm smack in the midle of that stupidity, i just get up and walk away. much nicer. and also people tell me it's more lady-like. i'm working on it okay.